Why i am so quite around Everybody
I am not a silent type of person. I like to enjoy with my friends, my family members at the time of my recreation. But day by day i am becoming more and more quite in my life. I become more silent in my life. But i don not want to be like that.
In my early ages, i was very cheerful person who can not sit at all. I like to be on movement for all the time. When i was studying in school, i was always participate in all programs along with my friends.
I remember, once i, along with some of my friends, was trying to find the human skull from a place which is known for its mystery. My teachers, yet today, remembered me as the talkative boy of the class.
In later stage i have joined Cadet College to complete my advanced education. At that time, i have discovered another meaning of life. I was engaged with all sorts of sports like football, cricket, volleyball, Table Tennis etc. At the games time, i can recall, we are running fast to reach in the field to take our place in the team as we follow FCFS (First Come First Select) method to select the place. In my cadet college, i have punished so many time to talking after LIGHT's Off. Our teachers can't stop our talking even in mosque. I remembered their try to keep us quite during the Preparation Our. After passing SSC, when we are become Senior then many nights we spend in gossiping with our friends. Life was so enjoyable at that time although that was not seems that much bright in that time. Truly, Present is never good, future and past is the best thing in our life. My mother, the most respected person to me, sometimes asked me when i will be more stable and less expressive in my life. I said, i will never quite in my life.
After Cadet College, i started my university life, a new dimension in my life. I heard many times that university life is the period which made a student more matured and responsible. I also admitted after my university life as that time make us much more older than previous. From that time, we started to think about career, the most disgusting thing of life, about family and marriage and so on. But i was very much expressive in that time also. Although i was very serious with my study, i was also busy in enjoying my life, in a way that i thought to be more interesting than others. I like to watch movies, i like to gossip with my friends until that gossiping started to criticize others. I had interest to visit many places but as i have some limitation regarding my pocket money, i need to curtail many of my wishes. But that limitations could not make me introvert rather i was extrovert in my own way. I was sharing my thoughts with my friends, sometimes i poked them to share something that they know better. I like to mention some of my friends who always gave their time to me with out any hesitation. Samsad, Malaya, Jahid (PIJA), Nomani, Alamgir, Rony(Bamboo), DipDip, Juhir these are some of the names i mention here but the list is very long.
I have joined in a job after my completion of BBA. And i have became more and more introverted from that time. I can remembered, i know very little about the job (as i was freshers) and i was not at all finding comforts in that place. People are very aggressive, they all like to dominate, and nobody want to hear anything. Majority of them are trying to hard to made themselves different from others. I was shocked when i found that they also criticized them who likes to stay quite. The employees believe that the silent people know nothing. And giving time with boss or colleague is the only thing to be treated as good. I started to feel boring in that place i became more and more introvert. I never thought to achieve success by identifying errors from my co-workers work or plan. I never try to criticise my colleague so that he became treated as poor and i became treated as good performer. I never like to do flashy things or projects in my work when i can achieve the result by focusing my dedication and hard work in the work. My bosses were very critical about the fact that i am not preparing any project. I admit that i should work as my bosses said me to do. But, my inner feelings never permit me to do anything which will hamper others life.
During my working, i was completely introverted which i could not break even after i have leave that job. I am now preferred to be quite rather than going outside and have some fun time. I can not break my shell that i have created during my service. Sleepless nights became very regular in my life. Many time i am looking at things which is not even in my focus.
Can anybody suggest why i am feeling this? Why i can not come out from my shell? Please help me. I can't live anymore in this pattern. My friends you can't imagine how painful experience this is. I need your help. Suggest me.
In my early ages, i was very cheerful person who can not sit at all. I like to be on movement for all the time. When i was studying in school, i was always participate in all programs along with my friends.
I remember, once i, along with some of my friends, was trying to find the human skull from a place which is known for its mystery. My teachers, yet today, remembered me as the talkative boy of the class.
In later stage i have joined Cadet College to complete my advanced education. At that time, i have discovered another meaning of life. I was engaged with all sorts of sports like football, cricket, volleyball, Table Tennis etc. At the games time, i can recall, we are running fast to reach in the field to take our place in the team as we follow FCFS (First Come First Select) method to select the place. In my cadet college, i have punished so many time to talking after LIGHT's Off. Our teachers can't stop our talking even in mosque. I remembered their try to keep us quite during the Preparation Our. After passing SSC, when we are become Senior then many nights we spend in gossiping with our friends. Life was so enjoyable at that time although that was not seems that much bright in that time. Truly, Present is never good, future and past is the best thing in our life. My mother, the most respected person to me, sometimes asked me when i will be more stable and less expressive in my life. I said, i will never quite in my life.
After Cadet College, i started my university life, a new dimension in my life. I heard many times that university life is the period which made a student more matured and responsible. I also admitted after my university life as that time make us much more older than previous. From that time, we started to think about career, the most disgusting thing of life, about family and marriage and so on. But i was very much expressive in that time also. Although i was very serious with my study, i was also busy in enjoying my life, in a way that i thought to be more interesting than others. I like to watch movies, i like to gossip with my friends until that gossiping started to criticize others. I had interest to visit many places but as i have some limitation regarding my pocket money, i need to curtail many of my wishes. But that limitations could not make me introvert rather i was extrovert in my own way. I was sharing my thoughts with my friends, sometimes i poked them to share something that they know better. I like to mention some of my friends who always gave their time to me with out any hesitation. Samsad, Malaya, Jahid (PIJA), Nomani, Alamgir, Rony(Bamboo), DipDip, Juhir these are some of the names i mention here but the list is very long.
I have joined in a job after my completion of BBA. And i have became more and more introverted from that time. I can remembered, i know very little about the job (as i was freshers) and i was not at all finding comforts in that place. People are very aggressive, they all like to dominate, and nobody want to hear anything. Majority of them are trying to hard to made themselves different from others. I was shocked when i found that they also criticized them who likes to stay quite. The employees believe that the silent people know nothing. And giving time with boss or colleague is the only thing to be treated as good. I started to feel boring in that place i became more and more introvert. I never thought to achieve success by identifying errors from my co-workers work or plan. I never try to criticise my colleague so that he became treated as poor and i became treated as good performer. I never like to do flashy things or projects in my work when i can achieve the result by focusing my dedication and hard work in the work. My bosses were very critical about the fact that i am not preparing any project. I admit that i should work as my bosses said me to do. But, my inner feelings never permit me to do anything which will hamper others life.
During my working, i was completely introverted which i could not break even after i have leave that job. I am now preferred to be quite rather than going outside and have some fun time. I can not break my shell that i have created during my service. Sleepless nights became very regular in my life. Many time i am looking at things which is not even in my focus.
Can anybody suggest why i am feeling this? Why i can not come out from my shell? Please help me. I can't live anymore in this pattern. My friends you can't imagine how painful experience this is. I need your help. Suggest me.
